When You’re Gonna Be Gone, You Should Be In Love
Posted September 30, 2018 09:16:00I can’t tell you how many times I’ve gone to the gym and thought, “I’m gonna be gone, then I’m gonna love you again.”
But for the most part, I’ve been too afraid to be alone with myself.
That’s a huge deal.
I love that I can say, “Look, I can’t be alone anymore.”
I’m like, “Oh, my God, you know what?
I can be with you.”
I think that’s one of the reasons I think it’s so liberating.
But for me, it also is the reason I’ve had so much fun.
I’m not afraid to admit that I’m in love.
If I’m going to spend time with someone, I don’t want to just be in love with someone.
I want to be with them in the moment.
And when I say “with,” I mean it in the most intimate way.
I can have conversations with them about life and love, and then when I’m ready to leave, I’m done.
I feel like I’m on the threshold of a new chapter.
There are moments in life when you just want to cry, and it’s the one thing that really pushes you to keep going.
That being said, there are times where I think, “Okay, I gotta be a little more careful about the love.”
If I can just go with what I feel, and what I know I love, then it’s a little bit easier.
That said, I know there are some people who are just like, [laughing].
It’s hard for them to admit it, but there are people who just don’t see that.
That is where the love comes in.
It’s not just a relationship; it’s love in the context of a relationship.
The people who have a real understanding of who they are and what they do and how they are attracted to women, they’re very attractive to me.
That doesn’t mean they’re the most beautiful person in the world.
They’re just the most attractive to people.
I just love the fact that there are so many beautiful people.
It doesn’t matter how big or small their body is, what color their skin is, or how much money they have, or whatever, there’s somebody out there for me.
And that is why I love being with them.
They are my friends, my family, my partner.
I don’ think there’s anyone else I’d rather be with than them.
You just have to be open to it.
And then you’re going to be able to say, Okay, I do, too.
You’re going be happy.
I think we have this misconception that there’s a limit to what you can do.
It never is.
You can’t do anything you want to do with your body.
And so, when I see these gorgeous women, I just think, I would do anything for them.
But the truth is, I’d be very, very upset if I knew that someone had told me that they couldn’t have sex with me.
Because I think I’m just a natural.
If someone told me I couldn’t love someone, then my heart would be racing.
I wouldn’t be able just to say no.
It would be like saying, I love you but you can’t have me.
So, it’s not like I can go around saying, “You can’t, but I do love you.”
But it does mean that I feel comfortable in saying, No.
I know that’s not who I am, but it does give me an understanding of where it comes from.
That does open my eyes to the fact of who I really am.
But then it doesn’t make me feel any different.
So for me it’s just like any relationship.
It has boundaries, but you don’t have to make a commitment to anybody or anything.
It just happens naturally.
That comes from the heart.